Everybody has a day when they wake up and know that nothing is going to go right. Nobody is spared from this happening at least once. Unfortunately, mine was yesterday. Though I am not ready to talk about events that led up to why yesterday was awful, I want to write a post that emphasizes something positive: remembering you are powerful.
I will give a very vague description of what happened yesterday, just for the sake of my privacy (I promise I will find it in me to talk to you about this in the future). I have never really talked to you about this, but for context, my day job is waiting tables. Anyway, I was at work going about my usual day, and then a certain individual came into the place I work at, and this individual is a threat to my safety and all around mental wellness. That is all I am going to share.
Moving on, I felt powerless and I felt as if I was rapidly backtracking to a negative state of mind that I used to be in all the time (someone close to me used to call this “being a backwards-walker”). I was shaking, afraid, and I didn’t know what to do. But in that moment, I realized that I need to remind myself that I am a powerful human. I work hard, I spread love to everyone around me, and I don’t let people fuck with me. And I began to feel warm inside again. I remembered that you should never allow anyone, no matter how fucked up or disgusting they are, influence your day-to-day existence. You are you. You are extraordinary.
I’m sorry this got heavy again, but I can sense that I have trust in all of you. Thank you all for being strong. Thank you for having open ears and positive minds.
Here’s my outfit! Shot by JENSON METCALF!
MARIO DRESS IN EARTHY GREEN BY ALLSAINTS. BOOTIES BY ALDO.